A simultanenously love being incredibly busy and hate having things hanging over my head. You know what I mean? As usual, I have a ton of reading to do, but that's just kind of how it is. Along with the reading, there are the questions given I need to answer for class the next day. Tonight I'm going to some law firm's reception for New York City APA law students. Then I have a performance with the Clefs. Tomorrow's Halloween, so there are events all over the place all night. And then this weekend, I'm going to Philly for a little Clefs roadtrip. Joy. And then at the same time, I have to figure out why the health services at Columbia say that I haven't had all my shots, even though I know I have, and I need to revamp my resume and make a few cover letters for internship opportunities, for which application deadlines are Friday. Moral of the story... I have a lot of random little things to think about, and I don't want to think about anything.
I know, I'm whining... as my friend, though, you're required to deal with it. Love you, too.
posted by phat tony 11:43 AM
I love that I have talented friends...
posted by phat tony 3:15 PM
"oh, gray beneath my feet
I should run
But somethin's fallin', freezin' as it comes.
And there could walk freely for god knows
how long
But the goin's not easy
and I'm slipping on this one.
There is green, somewhere deep
Deep beneath, deep beneath
Oh, looks blue to me behind this glass
they should walk out with bare feet and summer dress
when a blue sky now could mean
coldest day yet.
And the sky with no clouds
right now is merciless
there is green, somewhere deep
deep beneath, deep beneath.
Oh, spoken between us, I shall breathe
You're sure strong enough
I should breathe
Every step I take, shadow.
You should breathe.
Holding it all in
Waiting for you to leave."
-A. Gleichauf, Coldest Day Yet
posted by phat tony 3:14 PM
basically, today was my worst day ever in law school. EVER.
Okay, so I hadn't been called on AT ALL until today. I guess the first time is always a little painful, but the socratic method sucks when it happens to apply to you all day. I got called on multiple times, and I'm sure I'm now officially deemed the dumbest one in my class. It's horrible. I was so prepared for one of the classes in which I got called on... the question was just kind of bizarre and off-topic. The other class, well, I have no excuse because I just didn't do the reading.
But of ALL DAYS not to do the reading. Eh.
posted by phat tony 5:19 PM
and... I'm done.
first final. it's over. hope I passed. We'll just say I did.
Time to shave my head and enjoy the weekend.
See you tonight at Sam's gig.
posted by phat tony 5:47 PM
MUST. REMOTIVATE.
Why do I always need to do this?
This is a big week for me. Paper rewrite due. First exam of Law School on Friday. So much to do. So little time. So little organization in the time I have.
I slacked so much this weekend. Didn't do much Friday because I figured I had the rest of the weekend. Ended up having too much fun on Friday night, so my Saturday was ruined. Didn't do anything on Saturday (with the exception of the 3 pages of Civ. Pro. reading on the subway downtown). On Sunday, I attempted to do so much... work on the rewrite, do my reading... I ended up doing my reading for Civ. Pro, most of my reading for Contracts, and none for Torts. I tried SO HARD to do this rewrite, but in the 4 hours I worked on it (at a computer with internet access for constant e-mail checking and IM-ing), I made almost no progress.
I can't waste time this week. I can have LOTS of fun this weekend, but not this week. Remind me of that... a lot.
posted by phat tony 12:45 AM
I need some advice: Does anyone have a method by which to stay awake and alert until, say, 1am, at which point you can fall asleep fairly easily?... i.e. what time should one have their last sip of coffee or tea or any other caffeinated beverage so as to maximize one's study time, yet not deter the amount of sleep necessary for positive results the next day? Discuss. Any words of advice would be appreciated...
posted by phat tony 10:13 PM
I just got back from class, threw two loads of laundry into the machines downstairs, and now I need to organize my life. I feel as though school is getting a bit crazy again. I don't think I have a full understanding of the material that I should... I hear people conversing naturally in pseudo-legal jargon regarding the case materials presented in class and in the reading... Shit doesn't come as easily to me and I'm wondering why. What exactly am I doing wrong? Anyone have any advice? My attorneys from work are giving me some advice, but I feel as though there's no surefire way to do it.
I remember when I was taking that Drugs of Abuse class at Michigan, and I was failing my way through each exam (yes, I mean FAILING, as in F)... it wasn't until my friend Anita told me a little bit of her technique... just a methodology for studying for that class... and I completely aced the final, saving my grade. I need to figure out that methodology that works for law school.
I also think I need to start drinking coffee. Bizarre, yes, but true. Everytime I find myself at Starbucks, having some sort of coffee beverage, I always pay attention to my reading so much more, highlighting, making notes in the margins, all that junk. That needs to happen everyday. I need to turn compulsive about it. Yes.
posted by phat tony 4:34 PM
So today, Lee C. Bollinger is being inaugurated as Columbia University's President. It's ironic because my freshman year at Michigan, he was inaugurated as President there. I sang at his inauguration there, and last night, with the Clefs, I sang at his inauguration here. So weird. I chatted with him afterwards... he's an incredibly charismatic person, smiles everywhere. He was telling these funny stories about meeting his wife's family when they were about to get engaged, and how her father told him that they couldn't get married because he wasn't going anywhere in his life. He was all,"I wish I could've told him then that one day, I'll be President." Don't we all wish we could do that. Avoid all this drama and wonderment of what we'll end up doing and how successful we're going to be, and just know? It would make explaining my decisions to my parents a lot easier.
posted by phat tony 12:47 PM
I cherish sleep in SO many ways. That's really all I have to say about that.
posted by phat tony 12:37 PM
