7.26.2003
I want to blog about something here, but I can't put it into words... something about having friendships and dealing with roles people play and how when you're used to acting and reacting with people in a certain way and you take that specific methodology into another similar, yet different climate, and it just feels awkward (just to you, not to anyone else)... it's a bit unnerving.
posted by phat tony 3:29 AM
Long story short, had a great week in San Diego... Babbs, Jon, Victor, James, Hongshin, Gene, and LILLY!!! Let's talk about Lilly for 2 seconds... I met Lilly in my Acting 101 class freshman year. She graduated when I was a sophomore, and we hadn't seen (or really spoken) to each other until we linked back up and I stayed with her this past week. It was the best... I think she actually is responsible for me being the way I am right now... I know that's sort of a broad statement to make, and I don't know how altogether accurate it is, but there you are. Regardless, she's great, and all you San Diego folk need to e-mail/IM me and get her info. Now.
posted by phat tony 3:25 AM
7.21.2003
Mandisa came to visit this weekend. It was a joy. We figured that L.A. is one of those cities that is perfect for a weekend trip... I mean, there's JUST ENOUGH to do in L.A. to fill up a weekend... after that, you get bored. On Saturday, we walked around Santa Monica and Beverly Hills (ran into Paula Abdul at Dolce & Gabbana... she was holding this sweater for her guy friend... I wanted to talk her out of it, but all that came out was a weak "hi...". She said "Hi" right back... this basically means we're friends now). Today, we spent the day at the beach, took a nap, then I took her to the airport. It was sad to see her go, but it was a solid weekend, filled with good times and self-realizations.
Self-Realization One: I'm picky, and having smart, talented, and beautiful friends doesn't help me ascertain which standards are realistic when dating people.
Self-Realization Two: I may have found THE overriding characteristics that absolutely affirms my masculinity. I may have commitment issues. Yeah. Believe it. I mean, I realized long ago that I sort of have this pattern when getting into relationships... I seem to get into relationships, subconsciously knowing when they would end. Sometimes, I foresee the ending occur when I leave town permanently (high school and college graduations, for instance)... also, I foresee endings occur when summers end and "things get complicated." It's all very bitchy of me, but true nevertheless. I don't know what to do about this. I don't wanna be that guy. No one wants to be that guy. I, of all people, should not be that guy. But alas, I think I just might be. Then again, maybe I've always subconsciously known when the relationship isn't right... maybe it's all immediately intuitive. Maybe it's really true that you immediately know when you find the right person. Hmm... all I know is that I'm nowhere close.
This isn't exactly the makings of a personal ad, is it?
posted by phat tony 1:17 AM
7.14.2003
I love my friends.
I just spent the weekend with Nancy Cha. She's the best. The last time I saw her was for a day last summer. The time before that was during the summer of 2000. But she, as good friends do, just picked up where we left off... singing off-key in the car to everything, talking about everything, just being stupid and fun... it was really the best time. It makes me think of all those people you hated to say goodbye to... but in this day and age, it's like you really never have to say goodbye. (I'll spare you the pathetically cheesy "it's not goodbye, it's see you later.") It's just that nowadays, everyone understands that we all have our own lives going on wherever we are, but we're all just a potentially cheap flight away. It's so great to know that good friends who separate will probably see each other sooner than they think. Like at Memorial Day barbeques. Or at weddings. Or during random trips up the California coast. It's a beautiful thing, really.
posted by phat tony 1:52 PM
7.11.2003
woo-hoo! I'm heading up to the Bay Area (ish) tomorrow! Santa Cruz for the weekend, with potential for Oakland, San Jose, San Francisco, Napa, and wherever else... If you're reading this and you're in that area, give me a call!
posted by phat tony 3:46 AM
7.09.2003
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posted by phat tony 10:06 PM
7.07.2003
thing of note: sharon kim is good to make mix cds with. True.
posted by phat tony 12:34 AM
7.06.2003
Moral of the story... I'm in San Diego right now. It's 5:12am, CA time... Babbs and I just called PZ... he was happy to hear from us but not happy to be woken up by a phone call. We told him we missed him, I don't think he believed it.
Hongshin is only just now coming back from lobster-ing... illegal, but impressive. He caught two. Go Hongshin.
Eric is here in San Diego. It's a beautiful thing. He's crazy. He was trying to breakdance just now, but it didn't work.
Eva Cassidy is playing on Babbs's CD player... the last thing I thought would come out of those speakers, but I love it.
Shut it up, just shut up, shut up... -- Black Eyes Peas.
posted by phat tony 8:21 AM
7.03.2003
Went to San Diego last weekend... so much fun. Lots of DDT, it was the single most encouraging weekend I've had in Southern California this summer. Happy day. More San Diego this weekend, I think.
More later...
posted by phat tony 5:27 PM
7.01.2003
So, I crumbled. I finally joined Friendster. I have no idea why. Any enlightening thoughts?
posted by phat tony 9:27 PM
