Upheaval.
I've said it once, but I apparently wasn't listening to myself then.
So much has happened... new job, virtually a new life... attempting, perhaps in vain, to change my perceptions. I used to think I was good at this sort of thing. You know, uprooting my life, spinning around and jumping, and feeling just fine wherever I land. Okay, so my journeys aren't as random as that, but even calculated moves can be good for the soul every now and then. And right now, RIGHT NOW, I feel as though it's time.
New York has been wonderful. But it has made me lazy. Or rather, New York has given me the opportunity to be lazy, and I've jumped on board. I've stopped blogging, and while that's not necessarily symptomatic of horrible things, the reason I've stopped blogging is because I not only have much to say, what I DO have to say is not stuff I actually want to read and write about. I haven't been motivated by the ideas behind my work for a very long time, and I can't see myself staying in this city and making a deliberate change. So, working with this life's-fortune-directly-correlative-to-body's-location theory, it's time to get out. I'm thinking San Francisco. I see people I admire there, comparatively leading healthy lives, following a broader lifestyle than work hard-play hard-eat-sleep. It can be refreshingly rigorous, but in incredibly more healthy ways.
I should try to be healthier.
Maybe I should just put all of my possessions in storage and go on a month-long hike. Any takers?
"Just try it... Now there, that's it.
Oh God, that's heaven.
Oh, I'll love you right,
We'll wander down where the sins fly." - Spring AwakeningLabels: Upheaval
posted by phat tony 2:15 AM
